Sunday, May 17, 2009

I was packing Jun's belonging...
His clothes and stuff...
My heart is heavy, right now, i am not happy
But i still feels that we have a tiny hope, to be back together again :)
If i can learn to be happy, not so paranoid
Before i have the courage to find my way back, i will work hard for myself
Although i felt insecure leaving him to the world 'cos to me he is a darn good catch :)

I knew this had to be done

I went through some of my note books,
and i saw some of the notes i written since i knew Jun
I sound unhappy in most of the notes, in fact, all of the notes
Like from the start i am afraid of him leaving me, or thinking of leaving him when i face problems.
I guess even if Jun did not read my notes, he somehow sensed my thoughts.
I felt sorry, but saying sorry is useless.

As i daze into my thoughts,
An event flash across my mind..

It was during the early days when Jun was with me
I felt down and moody that few days,
at that point of time i believe that i was haunt by past experience.
i felt silly now, 'cos i was the one who allow myself to do so, shouldn't have :(

That day, Jun came to my house after work
And he just call me to accompany him to have dinner
Although i went out with him,
I was not smiling
Until when we reach the place for dinner
It was at The Night Safari
That was my first time there i must say
And before that i never know i will like such places
I was fascinated by the shows, the animals
I lost track of time looking and got amused by the animals actions
While i was on the 'train' touring the Safari,
Our eyes met,
Jun look into my eyes and say
'You finally smile...'

♥ Have you red-ed? :)

I miss
my baby...
my sweet heart...
my baobei...

his smile...
his sparkling eyes...
his hugs...
and his smell...

♥ Have you red-ed? :)

I miss my baby...

Good night, hope you have a sweet dream tonight.

♥ Have you red-ed? :)